The dictionary of the girl

I know you need your space
I cannot read it in your face
but I know you told me then
back when it all began

I am learning the ways of you
to sense when you're telling the truth
writing down all that I've found
from glance to the slightest sound

My studies have come to an end
there's no longer need to pretend
because now I know you so well
I just thought I wanted to tell

Neon Nightmare

everything's fading away
can't seperate dream and day
a disease of the brain
has weakened my mainframe


lost in this neon nightmare
killed a million cerebral cells
of my corrupted software


staring into the walls
as my mind slowly falls
never to be the same
I've forgot my own name

not much left of what I am
time to shut down my program
wish I could go to sleep
counting mechanical sheep


lost in this neon nightmare
killed a million cerebral cells
of my corrupted software


still looking at the mirror
but nothing's getting clearer
I wave at my reflection
but get no reaction...

Amnesia

everytime I see you
I feel like I haven't seen you for years
but it's my amnesia
last time I remember you, was that summer
we were only eighteen
now we are old and we are dying of age
but you still love me
and I see you just as beautiful as then


when I see you
I must hug you
I must kiss you
I must hold you
'cause in a minute
you'll be gone forever again


when I let you go
you turn with a tear in your eye
and go to the kitchen
you bring back coffee and cookies
I'm thinking of summer
you return from a lifelong trip
I welcome you again
you reply with another tear in your eye


when I see you
I must hug you
I must kiss you
I must hold you
'cause in a minute
you'll be gone forever again

You missed my goodbye

I'm haunted by my bad dream
you are torn away in a gleam
a hospital visit one afternoon
blamed you for leaving too soon


please don't leave me
I'm not ready like you
please help me to see
how I can live without you


wanted to say so many things
as you were growing your wings
but you missed my goodbye
and then you learned how to fly


please don't leave me
I'm not ready like you
please help me to see
how I can live without you

Pixels

I see with digital vision
out of my tiny lenses
there's dust in my engine
so the motion freezes

you fill several gigabyte
on my little brain
I can only see the outside
it's making me insane


all my photos of great value
I would trade them all for one of you

we're wearing colors on the image
given by the color cartridge
we're all just pixels on a screen
printed by the mother machine


I am the person you can see
in the left corner
your eyes they never see me
faded is the color

the composition is all wrong
we pass each other
I don't wanna wait for so long
for another picture


all my photos of great value
I would trade them all for one of you

we're wearing colors on the image
given by the color cartridge
we're all just pixels on a screen
printed by the mother machine

If I knew

If I knew what to say - I would reply

If I knew what to do - I would try

If I knew what to think - I would rest

If I knew how to pass - I'd take the test

the random questions in my head

the thoughts I have when I'm in bed

till I'm feeling my brains blow

the answer is: do I really wanna know?

If I knew where to go - I'd be gone

If I knew where to start - i'd be done

If I knew how to flee - I'd have fought

If I knew how to pray - I'd be God

the random questions in my head

the thoughts I have and left unsaid

till I'm feeling my brains blow

the answer is: do I really wanna know?

If I knew how to feel -  I'd be cold

If I knew how to live - I'd be old

the random questions in my head

the thoughts I have I can't forget

till I'm feeling my brains blow

the answer is: do I really wanna know?